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Name: Ashleigh
Location: Columbus, Ohio, United States
Birthday: 11/18/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: God, Bethel Camp, hanging out with my Friends, going to the mall and just taliking to my friends my youth group music and books and movies Johnney Cash and The Cranberries and Audrey Hepburn and Europe and world travel
Expertise: Being bored
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  Musicislife4516
Member Since:
1/27/2006
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| today has awoken some very deep thoughts in my head. thoughts of sadness its amazing at my ability to srew up my own life. i mean i get in my own way of happiness like all the time. saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing now i don't even know what i want any more i used to be so sure i was going to be a singer and a actress and i was gonna be a great role model for girls now i look back at the unrealisticness of my dreams and the lack of support from my family but i wouldn't want to live that kind of life. now i know that the most important thing to me is to have a family of my own and maybe one day if the economy picks up i will open a antique shop and right now i think it would be fun to be in a band but like all the people i know that are musicians are already in a band but whatever back to the subject i feel like i have a prob whenever i liked someone i had a way of making myself look like a total freak I'm not really just a little crazy lol or the way i medal in peoples life ya know like those and then i screw that up too and i feel like i wanna lay on the floor listening to really mellow music and like cry plus one of my bf won't talk to me and she is really into some bad stuff and i dont know what to do any more and the other i am so happy for cause she is in a great relationship but i almost never see her anymore and i made amess out of this one thing but setting my friend up with a guy that isn't the best and my mom was gonna more to az and get married but thank god she is coming home soon i'm really broke and lonely and bored so ya i need to find some sort activity so pray that i find something fun and that i would be a good exapmle of christ
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| ok so i am super irritated life is just so difficult. when you think your sopossed to do one thing you find out that is is not at all what you were meant to do. or how one of your best friends always seems to be better than you at everything your good at or people alwayswant you to be something your not or how your fam does not have a clue who you really are be really gay about that because they think they know everything about you or how your really not sure who your sopossed to be at the end of the day or how all the nice cute smart funny christian guys either thjink your crazy (well at least if they dont its a mirical beacuse you gave them good reason to )or are in love with someone else or dont even notice you because they assume that your not their type or cause your friends are so darn cute or someother reason i havent mentioned,or they think you look bad and and if they do notice you they are complete pigs and or already have a girlfriend or they are too old or too young or you get close to someone wether friends or men and they just completly diss you suddenly for whatever reason or they die then the world completely sucks big things and little like gas prices and interest rates or finace charges the divorce rate or the amout of sex befor marriage the escalating crime rates and the court sytems that let people sue people for stupid crap like this photographer got sued cause she declined to photograph a gay wedding the abuse of government power the denile of basic rights that were esablished from the very start of this country and some of which were the reason for the war for our indipendence from Britian and the lack of expectations for teenages sometimes things are a basic cry for help or attention and they are just written off as being teenagers like they dont know right from wrong and ya know the things that people get away with because of fame or money and how selfish some of us are when there are so many people living in extreme poverty but as discouraging as this all is i still believe in people in the power god placed inside of us the strength we have the goodness we all posses there are very few people who have lost all the light but i believe we need to fight for the light that is left its amazing how the little things we do can effect people forever i wish that i could see the ripples around people to see how one persons actions can affect millions whos to say that it was one snobish jew at the super market that made hitler mad so befor you do something consider the ripples you will be leaving behind will they be good or bad you never know that you may change the world and as a a side not to me and anyone else who needs it beieve in your self and dont let what people say discourage you stop others bad rippels and trust God for al the guidence you need and when you hear his voice trust it even when its hard it really pays off so ya this is my vent that made me feel better lol | | |
| I've very little to say 1. i've been busy 2. i moved to myspace cause thats where my best two friends are and alot of other people that i know an di don't have time for two 3. www.myspace.com/tinked1621 peace love and music | | |
| !THIS IS ME!
WILD HORSES
Natasha Bedingfield
I feel these four walls closing in. Face up against the glass, I'm looking out and is this my life I'm wondering. It happened so fast how do I turn this thing around. Is this the bed I choose to make? There's greener pastures I'm thinking about. Wide open spaces far away.
All I want is the wind in my hiar to face the fear, but not feal scared.
Chorus: Wild horses i want to be like you. throwing caution to the wind. I'll run free too, wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to.I wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses
I see the girl I wanna be riding bare-back, care-free along the shore. If only that someone was me. Jumping head-first, head-long without a thought. To act and srew the consequence. How I wish it could be that easy. But fear surrounds me like a fence, I wanna break free
All I want is the wind in my hair to face my fear, but not feel scared
Wild horses I wanna be like you throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free tooWish I could recklessly love like I'm longing toI wanna run with the wild horses Run with the wild horses, I wanna run too Recklessly abandoning myself before you. I wanna open up my heart telling how I feel.
Wild horses I wanna be like you throwing caution to the wind. I'll run free too. Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to. I wanna run with the wild horses.
Run with the wild horses Run with the wild horses
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| hey there sorry it's been so long sice i've updated I've just been so very busy well hummm about Mexico if ya really wanna know look at tootie's site but since then i have had the fair (thats sucked sommin terrible) then there was two Funerals one was My great aunt Ora who has been in a nursing home for 7 years hard but not as hard as the the next one Margaret one of the women that raised me who ihave lived with since my dad died 11 years ago that was quite possibly the hardest week of my life and while i love my dad i didn't know him as well i was only 5. well this loss is a ongoing struggle in my life so please pray for strength in the coming weeks, as i have aquired some new tasks such as cook for the three of us and helping Ellen through this cleaning and stuff so many thanks
With sorrow
ashleigh | | |
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